Wednesday, January 11, 2006
woah, what a lapse, huh? well, i'm back.
its raining. outside. i'm only too thankful to be back indoors.
this is the start of many more dinners to be taken at home.
not too bad, i'd even helped my grandma to arrange the flowers.
what strong winds.

i'm..turning 19 in 2 days.

something i thought that was irrevocably lost,
has been found.

how've you been?
so unused to the quiet. okay. i admit. i'm bored. excess of silence. theres no msn here.

feel the disc whirring under the heel of my palm.
observational drawing
imaginative drawing
memory drawing.

velvet eyes are a part of me
sunset smiles and secret tears
time my life to a fallen leaf
watch the spring in all its plumage.

Wednesday, August 31, 2005
its about 3weeks to the dateline for coursework submission
one and a half weeks to prelims. guess i wont be studying for that.
,br>on my way to being royally screwed.
bah., humbug.

but, when i'm not complaining. i'm deliriously happy.
playing and being
incredibly well fed.

:/ i'm awake at 4 again. its the best time to catch me.

Tuesday, August 2, 2005
i am, awake at threeforty am on a school night/day(?)
well done.

piles of tutorials.

the world, rather my world is fast asleep.
wake up,i miss you


Tuesday, July 19, 2005
hi. everyone, thank you (:

especially, you, you and you

for your belief(or is it believe)& support.

- oodles of noodles

Monday, July 11, 2005
mmm! mightily proud that i finally posted something. keeping this 'pita' in a state of..confused being. haha.
existing and not existing
hmm. if existance is defined by how frequently you update it.

goodness. what am i going on about?
i am indeed huuunngry.

hungrily ungry.
yes, ungry.


Monday, July 11, 2005
it is a surreal experience. this hovering between the states of sleep and wake. floating, barely there with half lidded eyes. yet not quite ready to (for a lack of a better word) heck it all and climb into bed.

i should have brilliant eyebags, and a diva-esque attitude to match come tomorrow.

hunkey munkey,
i miss you so.

Wednesday, June 22, 2005
in about 3/4 of a day, i should be whole again!
i'm so overtly dramatic (:
seems like i hinge my days on counting down days
today's decision to stay home to study obviously wasn't a really good one afterall. spent the bulk of my time, starring into space, and reading junk stuff. and popping in and out of steph's room, just to say, hi. and resisting the urge to consume everything in the fridge.
i swear the fridge quakes at the sight of me

Tuesday, June 21, 2005
There are some things that never fail to make me, smile. or get all emotionally wrangly (if theres such a word).

the latter, referring more specifically to gooey mooshed up songs.
the former.. :D :D :D :D :D

i love,
and am loved.

Saturday, June 11, 2005
The date, is, well look up and see for yourself :P its just one more day to sundayyyyyy. sunny sundaaaee. hot fudge sundae. ok, enough char! :D i'm actually typing this entry, squatting in front of my keyboard. hurhur. what a ridiculous position. cos i've just leaked all over my shorts. and i should go shower right now. but i'm so bubbling with enthusiasm and good cheer. that..singing in the shower ain't quite enough to express my sheer glee. if. and what a big IF ONLY at that. "wish harder" or something like that. i wished really hard. and look what i got? :D isn't it a frustration to read my entries? well,its frustrating for me, typing these entries too. (i'm kneeling down now, why didn't i think of this position earlier? -mashed potatoes) tripping over my vocab,spelling and grammar. all tangled. balancing. personal? i feel like i'm severely impaired when it comes to constructing coherent sentences, paragraphs. i doubt i'd ever feel comfortable enough blogging about my feelings explicitly. (eg, i'm angry because xxx said abcdefghijk) cos i can't control who reads me. and if theres ever a need to, things like these should be settled in a conversation window, at the very least. and because i know i'll never allow my post to contain very personal stuff, i feel like i'm ..shortchanging . you. who reads my blog. (: makes sense? ok. i really need to do something about my general hygiene.

Friday, May 27, 2005
just awhile ago it was the 26th. i still remember, not consciously, just a quiet thought. todays the 26th. i get by. perfectly fine. just knowing. i wonder why i'm even typing it out for you to read. i wonder if you still read my blog. much has changed, for the better. yet i still wonder how you are. no, i don't miss you nor do i care. its just wanting to know. childish comparison perhaps? maybe someday you'll drop me a note. its just the music.

Sunday, May 22, 2005
i've been having so much fun lately that i loath to stop to study, start on the pile of tutorials. i'm constantly excited about art! soaking up new things. and exploring new things. i am stressed out. yesterday i witnessed a great sight. a chameleon had caught a large large grasshopper/praying mantis in its jaws. and the grasshopper/mantis was still alive! i saw it flap its wings and twitch a leg despite its head was already in the lizard's mouth. (if i was the insect, i think i'd have fainted. this just proves that insects 've no brains?) a bird was nearby contemplating attacking the chameleon for the mantis/hopper. so, i chased the bird away. shuhui was feeling quite grossed out so i'd to leave. but i did see the chameleon swallow a little more of the hopper/mantis. i wonder if they chew. they don't seem to possess teeth. hmm. i realised that of late, i've had this afinity with chameleons. i just keep spotting them, at relative close range.

Tuesday, April 26, 2005
the snickers snickered it really feels

Sunday, April 24, 2005
i'm upset. i'm upset. i'm upset. but i accept things the way they are.

Monday, April 18, 2005
my blog is languishing again. nothing much to blog about again though. except that, i am superbly excited about this friday (: love my blog layout but hate looking at so many repeated copies of myself. sorry pings :P its just that i see so much of myself in Amanda's work already. and so much of myself in the mirror everyday that i just don't want to see myself some more. hahha. makes sense? but i'm thankful for the way i look.

Sunday, April 10, 2005
beep. back. its been such a busy busy time for me lately and the best thing about it is though i reach home every night feeling like i've gone through war, i'm enjoying every moment of it. every every every moment of it. Thank you everyone. love you all.

Friday, March 18, 2005
i am so angry. that i could scream! that i am motivated enough to blog about it. for the world world and sundry out there to read about my brother and his fantastically idiotic habits. he crumpled my paper. my new stack of paper!! dogged eared it cos he probably propped his dirty feet on them. my new paper. urrrggghh. i hate. absolutely HATE my art paper to be cumpled. dog ears are the worst. it makes me so upset that it kills whatever meagre inspiration i have. he didn't even apologise.

Wednesday, March 9, 2005
hey hey heyo! you!! hhahah.

Monday, February 28, 2005
woohoo. (: i'm just so happy with where my life is heading right now. for art, at least. actually not really. just for my coursework. at least i'm inspired to work on some stuff :D the past month hasn't been good. but things have taken a turn for the better. just as the pastor said. "trust in the Lord even when times are bad". maybe its a lot easier for me to say something like that since i've climbed out of the pit hole. ahh well. more next time. (:

Thursday, February 10, 2005
its been a long time since i've added an entry. not that i don't want to. just that i really don't know what i say. since the bulk of my thoughts 're penned in my journal, there isn't a need for an online variation. but its pretty fun sometimes to think of it, that you're actually contributing to the junk on the worldwideweb. i wonder if i have closet readers. hmmm. (:

Thursday, February 3, 2005
played catcher today on a lark. it was, fun (: though i've a new bruise thats swelling (charl's icepack has been put to good use) i love trying new things really. the thrill of it. anticipation. i picked up some tree branches today. so i was struggling with an armload of branches, my bag, phone and ezlinkcard sat down beside this really sweet old lady. as my branches were sticking into the aisle, the auntie helped me put my branches by the window. i was sitting at the window. she was carrying two bags herself! i was touched. its a pity i couldn't understand what she said. on my way to school, walking from engneo, i saw a rather weird scene. not weird weird. just, out of sorts. anyhow, a car pulled alongside the curb and a foreigner alighted and waited along the road. almost immediately, his other friend picked him up to work! sophisticated carpool huh? i was thinking in all the mornings that i've trudged to school no one has ever picked me up. its a habit for us to pick our schoolmates up if we've enough space in the car.

Saturday, January 29, 2005
finally everything works. thanks pings. for making the page. green beans red beans mung beans lentils french beans wasabi beans pea head(s) kidney beans long beans short beans fat beans skinny beans juicy beans and black bins.